The life of a new 'momma'

"Where have I come from, where did you pick me up?" the baby asked his mother.
She answered, half crying, half laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast,    
"You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling. You were the dolls of my childhood's games... In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother you have lived."
--Rabindranath Tagore

My life is changed. Forever. I'm a mom. This is a new role     a life changing role.
Although I lived a life full of love, I've never experienced this kind of love.  I've been in love (I am in love!) with a wonderful man, I've been blessed to have a family that I love dearly. I can't imagine my life without my parents and love and adore them so much. My siblings are my best friends and I love the memories we have and are always making together. I love the closeness of my grandparents. I've always loved my aunts/uncles, cousins and other extended family members. Then I got married and inherited a new family to love. And I do! I have so many dear, dear friends that I love as well. My life has been FULL of love!

But then he came. My dear boy... Logan Lee Wager. And my heart found an entirely new way to love. It does not belittle the love that I have for the previously listed individuals. As a matter of fact, it may have magnified my love for all of them. Because without those family members and friends, my life would never have been complete enough to love him the way I do. I am so blessed to have such a great amount of love around us. But, boy oh boy do I love him!!

I  stare at him and my heart overflows with love. I look into his eyes and mine flow freely with tears of joy and thanksgiving. His sweet, perfect face is mesmerizing. I hold his little hands and can't imagine the possibly that lies in them. What will his life hold... what will he be, do, love when he grows. I have indeed loved... but I have never experienced this type of love---sacrificial and life-changing love. He is our boy. I can't imagine my life without him and I can't wait to watch him grow. I am so thankful and so blessed to have been given this boy to love. Just when you think life can't get any better... and then it does.

"No one understands how someone so little can so change their world     
until they hold their baby in their arms." --Pam Brown