Dear Baby

Wednesday, May 1st, 2013

Dear Baby,

I woke up bright and early with every intention of peeing on that stick. I knew I couldn't do it earlier in the week because I spent my Monday with mom and there was a good chance I'd blab if I knew anything out of the ordinary. I decided to lay in bed until Jordan left so I could hold my bladder a little better. He left for clinic at 6:30 am and I immediately jumped out of bed. I grabbed my box and reviewed the directions. I took my pee, covered the stick and watched the time click away. Two minutes... I prayed to God that whatever HIS will for our lives was, that I'd be ok with it. That I trusted His planning far better than my own and I wanted to be open to HIS plans--hence the no birth control anyways. :)

Click... click... click...

Times up.

I picked up the stick and they immediately began to pour out of my eyes. I'm not sure if I ever remember a time of feeling such complete joy more intensely. There was no other way to describe what was happening-- what I was thinking, what I was feeling. I was happy. I was shocked... scared, surprised, overwhelmed and excited. It was an emotional few minutes in the bathroom at 7625 Edinborough Way between me, God, and the beautiful blessing He decided to trust me to grow and care for.

After a few minutes of tears, smiles, joy, laughter, etc. I began getting myself ready for the day. I got ready and went to work assured that May 1st, 2013 would be a great day. A dear friend of mine (and coworker) decided to bless me with a Mayday bouquet of flowers and I was even more assured that God was smiling down on the great things ahead for me.

After what seemed like the longest day ever, I got to go home and prepare for sharing the news with daddy. I had previously bought some pink and blue Michael Jordan booties for our 'someday baby' so I brought them out after school and placed them in our bedroom. I used our "I love you because..." sign and wrote, "I love you because... you're going to be a wonderful daddy in 8 months."
I then placed a pair of pink and blue booties in front of the sign and placed that big blue + sign on the picture frame ridge for daddy to see. When he got home from clinic he was in no hurry to go upstairs. Before we ate supper, I asked him to get me a pair of slippers (which I knew where upstairs). He went up to get them and I followed behind. He saw it immediately.

Again, I teared up as I leaned in to hug him and he giggled like a schoolboy. He was so giddy with joy and anticipation of our first child. We were both just so happy (and surprised) that is was actually happening. We didn't do much the rest of the night except be together, cuddling and giggling. We watched part of a video from his maternal and infant health class. The video was not interesting enough to keep me hooked for too long. I had too many other things to be thinking about...

We had such a great day learning about you, baby. We are very excited to be your parents and can not wait to watch you develop and grow. Praise God for His wonderful work in our growing family!

Love you so much already,

Your Mom